apology for the cryptic post.

lol. sorry! i didn't realize until later that my last post probably sounded a little weird and cryptic. i had written a longer post but then thought it sounded a little ranty.

basically, james is not laid off. But, his boss has no work for him. He will tell him he has to work...then when James calls to see where, he doesn't answer the phone...for days. this has gone on for weeks and weeks. i think i'm finally winning the filing for unemployment argument, which until now he has refused to do. so hopefully he'll do that. i don't understand his logic on why not...

Thankfully, I saved a lot of the money I made last year so we are still doing fine with bills and everything. But obviously, if no money comes in...that means the savings goes bye-bye. Which, would be nice to not happen. Especially since we have a car to buy soon. anyway, we're dealing with it. we just have 2 different ways of dealing with things. Usually, that is a good thing. I can motivate him and he can chill me out. I tend to be more proactive and face problems but also have a tendency to be totally stressed and idealistic. He doesn't like to deal with problems or any means of confrontation, so he doesn't...and tends to be more relaxed with a life will happen attitude. but when it means me having to let him lead...it stresses me out when he doesn't.

so along with the back problems, finding out that james doesn't want to get his masters, the kids having the flu, the car situation, the baby coming, my business and the changes of our plans because of the new baby...yeah..a little insight into the sucky suck that has been consuming my sleep.

I've just been praying that God will calm me down. And that he'll give James the guidance to make the right decisions.

So as I said before, hopefully we'll be on track soon...

xoxo.